blackness taking over my thoughts. Closing in a suffocating never-ending cloud heavy with the weight of darkness. Surrounding me with its ever present fingers of destruction. The pain how I run;. running running. Dreams of blood and death ; fear and pain, ripping my heart out a piece at a time. My eyes don't see, the tears don't come, shaking shaking, muscles all in a ball tight scared ready for flight. climbing climbing clawing waiting for it to be over. raw torn wounds never healing pain oh my god let it stop.