I haven't written for a while. The reasoning? I just haven't been able too! To many things going on and my brain is in overdrive. Jury Duty, sick grandsons, husband hurt can't work, son in jail once more and now it is raining again. I don't really care about the rain, it is rather fitting. I hate when it is beautiful out and I am black inside. I walk and take my pictures reveling in the fact that spring truly is near, I breath deep and take my time, I accomplish things, I celebrate the small stuff, yah the floor is clean, kinda stuff.
How difficult this must be for her. She has always had all the answers or tried to help me find them. I realize now how much I disregarded her words of wisdom. Mom has a hard time accepting that our roles are reversing, let's face it until recently I was not someone you could count on. Building trust takes awhile, I've learned this, I am not in a hurry. I get concerned when it pertains to her health, sometimes I want to shake her shoulders and say listen to me. Obviously that would accomplish nothing, I bring up touchy subjects with the Doctor, the Doctor tells her, she follows directions. My job is done.