Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Thoughts I'm having tonight.
I know I said I will be positive, I am having difficulty with that today. Things in my brain are sideways and upside down. I feel myself curling into a ball of fear and pain. Clenching every muscle. Talked to mama today it was much the same, she hurts and misses her family, looks forward to her shopping trips like a kid for the zoo. I am sad for her.
The tears they still wont come, my head is swimming with the tears of so much hurt. The wound was inflicted yesterday but the pain is here to stay. The bruises no one saw, the words no one heard. I'm drowning in my cave.
Alone, fearful, there is a weight of enemies, go away, go away. Ugly and dark my dreams of you who has been dead for 20 years.
The storm is still here.